Live sucks (again)

Now is again such a time in live, where you have the motivation or wish to just fade away.

I’m just listening to Fort Minor – Where’d you go and thinking about the stuff Mike Shinoda is singing …

I want you to know it’s a little fucked up,
That I’m stuck here waitin’, no longer debatin’,
Tired of sittin’ and hatin’ and makin’ these excuses,
For while you’re not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don’t really know what you got ’til it’s gone.

The track is really great, I really enjoy that. Some people I know would call it dark or even depressive but it ain’t even like that. It’s just a bit blue, like carving for someone is. 🙂

I didn’t thought that telling someone, that you sense a bit more than friendship would change so much. So much, that even simple talking to each other isn’t possible any more. Oy, that sucks.

And than you get to hear, that’s only for you, so it won’t hurt so much. What a lame excuse.

On the other hand I really start to enjoy my life. Looking the third seaoson of Stargate which DHL just delivered yesterday. Work is getting more exciting.

Hopefully the new IBM System X (well we ordered xSeries 😉 ) will be delivered next week, I’m already studying the ESX documentation.